Things I’m grateful for

• Fuck
• Fuck
• Fuck

Something great thah happened during the last 24 hours. …? Fuck!

I’m grateful for

• my fantastic morning coffee
• fresh unpasturised honey for my toast (most delicious with fresh baked bread)
• my experience as a baker

I had some fun with Scribus yesterday. I enjoy learning new programs. It’s an easy to use publishing program. I helped Greta with a poster for her spin training camps that she’s promoting.

I have so many wonderful friends. I’m not sure what it is that fills my life with such wonderful people. I’m thankful that it happens.

John has invited us out to a St Pat day party this evening. I’m going to go and shake my ass to some good music this evening. I haven’t been dancing enough lately.

This morning I went on a Van Morrison kick. I listened to all sorts of great music by Van the Man. YouTube is a great resource for me. Wow! His music is something else that I’m grateful for. I took the time to read the lyrics to the songs as they came on. What a talent.

I’m grateful for

• A great nights sleep
• Concerned friends
• Tasty cup of tea

I’m looking forward to my day. A little more snow. I could do without that, but it’s spring. It’s the routine of March here in the Kootenays. I hope the end of Wendy’s yesterday was better than her beginning. I hope Umbro has a better day today and more days to come. He has been having a very hard time. He’s a cute dog. I would not want him in my home. He has epilepsy or something. A lot of work.

Bonnie. What would make her happy today? How can I make her day better today? I should talk to her about ordering her kiln. We can discuss the building she is interested in. Not sure what else. I hope that’s enough.

My workout today is 12-15-9 handstand pushups, ring dips, pushups. With this snow I have to have a different plan. I have to go to Greta with a sure plan to make this happen. 11am.

I’m going to walk the dogs morning and evening from now on. It will get me out of the house in the evening. I need that. It will lead to a better routine for them and me.

• I’m grateful my dogs are healthy.
• My home is safe and sound.
• I didn’t choke to dealth on a walnut today.

I had a double walk with my dogs today. Morning and evening. They were happy. Afterward I went to the gym and did my wod. My knees were sore but I did well. I haven’t done back extensions before. They really taxed me. I feel a bit wobbly in the knees, but stronger all the time. I love my crossfit. I’m going to rock my world. I’m really starting to look like an athlete again. More than I ever have. I’m feeling sexy and strong. I am leaving my cancer in the dust. It is an exciting time. I’m living large. Wahoo!

I finished reading my latest book. “The extinction club” Loved it. I’m having a hard time getting in to my next read. “My name is red” Only a couple of short chapters in so far.

Love to the world.

Yesterday I extended support for C’s dad. He has lost his wife of over 50 years. Just offered to help if he wants it.

1. I’m so grateful that my parents are on their way home.
2. I slept better than I have in weeks
3. I’m eager to workout again

Yesterday we played cards. It seems like such a small thing. It brought us closer together. I had a wonderful visit with Sparky. Early in the afternoon, Grandma phoned. She sounded good. She would like me to come out for a visit. I’m so thankful that people consider that I may be tired from my cancer. I’m not sure that I am. I feel pretty damn good. It is such a guessing game. What is my normal. Do I get to have a normal. It is very considerate of people to consider that I’m not up to all they would like me to be. Dr. MacDonald didn’t realize or remember that I had chemo. When I suggested that I may have some hormone problems because of treatment he put in a request to have my levels checked. I’m not sure what can be done if there is a problem, but we will see. If I can get some sort of testosterone replacement I would benefit in more ways than sexually. It would be nice to have my body respond better to my workouts. I feel like I work really hard with minimal results. Not knowing how much life I have left makes me want to do the things in life I enjoy the most. Sex is one of them. I have the thoughts and interest, but the physical response is different since the chemo. We’ll do what we can.

Here it is. I’ve got a bunch of this routine down pat already. Some slight modifications needed.

1. Exercise daily
2. Meditate/Yoga in the morning for 30 minutes
3. 3 new things I’m grateful for each day
4. Journal about a positive experience that happened in the last 24 hours

Wahoo!

They say that will reprogram you to have more dopamine flowing through your machine every day. Not only does it make you feel happy, it fires up all your learning abilities.

Like I said, Wahoo!

How can I be so in love and feel so alone. Abandoned! Only physically. No longer wanted for anything other than my presence in a quiet home. Am I no longer desirable? Could anyone lust for me after today? Please. Pathetic. Alone in a home full of love. Alone without question.

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